galore-smileypie

summer was drought and fall i started drinking again things were dry in different places; dry in my mind and against my knuckles dry in my mouth and burning down my throat i would grab you in the doorframes and wait for the hair to be brushed out of my eyes by your hands that were warm waiting for the snow to be a blanket i told you what it meant i wouldnt be able to write any more

the feeling when you finally curl your vertabraes against the sheets cold as a winter breath when the song comes on again and there is a beautiful breaking at the top of your ribcage bruising on your knees

it doesnt matter what you put up on your walls because it will stay there i was living inside a star burning white like bones i am a girl with sad eyes and cold feet with blisters on them you were about to maybe be my skinny boy get up and go away burn me with chai latte hands come you will be home writing on my walls and waking me up on sundays

in autumn when it rains and the leaves are plastered to the cement it is windy like subway tunnels and you are breaking my promises i am hung up on the world paper fingers on the piano come back and save me

today i lost weight in my wrists and they felt shaky and heavy and full of air at the same time i stared at the spaces where light reflected and drank green tea i watched you become thousands of leagues above me i am deep under the sea

and when i woke up my face was buried in the sand and my hands were aching tendrils around your stomach shaking red fingers and clear calm skin the waves washed up over us and rolled your head back around i felt your ice blue eyes straight through my bone marrow

your lungs are suicidal and my spine curves against the inverted ceiling the sky is heavy with stardust everything wont stop spinning as we start to fade to the darkness you take me by the ear and your breath is cold the clouds coming out of your mouth are the heavens and your voice is the galaxy

i was good until i started writing about you all the same curling caterpillar in bed until my eyelashes wind up on your face carried away i could finally hear the sounds in my cheeks as they grew red and you swore the winter wind would be enough to break you down i laughed the hardest and my throat was so bare you are so much stronger than the masses of air

i will connect the freckles like stars on your face we are so tiny and the buildings breathe white night touched my arm you know you are enough to break me ten times over

it leaves me with the shivers burning down my esophagus, the next day full of shakes and glassy eyes you are a butterfly to my mouth

i once said, listen up, because here's the way it's going to work: there will be milky ways and mountains and clouds dancing with rain, the sun won't quite look the same, and the moon won't seem so dull. i once said, come closer, because there's something that you need to know: at night we'll breathe against each other, move with each other, and our delirious melodies will wake the waves and shake the stars. i once said, stay here, don't go, never ever leave me: but here i am now, eating my words from a silver platter.

you are my id and my super-ego, your metal wire teeth are cataclysmic broken capillaries decorating my skin you haunt the back of all my thoughts and i love you it's tragic i don't know what love is too mny open sores on open hearted boys ruined the word for me you're not emaciated or a good kisser. you won't break my heart and i hate you for it. you're a color version of the same black and white movie i've already watched over and over and over and over the saturation is exciting but the words you're saying are dialog i have already analyzed and memorized and i've already written you down. your emotional exhaustion over me is